- DISAPPOINTED -

5 Days Passed... ...Cold War...
We haven't been talking for 5 days...I'm disppointed more than angry. Anger has subsided long ago...but nothing has been done so far. Well, if you ask me what am i expecting? To be honest, I don't know either.
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Darling went out for a drink with his colleague last Fri after work (late shift, knock off @ 2300hr) at Elias Park (yes, very far....) Usually he'll be home around 3+ to 4am in the morning but on that day, he texted me @ 0400am saying that will be leaving in half an hr. At 0500am, no sign of him so i called his hp...he was still at the drinking place...
I was angry coz it's way past the time he said he would be leaving & he didn't even bothered to call or sms me to let me know that he would be later. Anyway, this always happen EVERYTIME he goes out drinking...nothing new & I'm REALLY SICK & TIRED of it. This time I felt that he's gone overboard...it's way toooo late (or early...?) Think he didn't get home till maybe 0630hr or so...
I was fuming when I spoke with him over the phone, he didn't even apologise or said anything...just "umm, ya...ok soon..." I told him "you can jolly well go & sleep over at your friend's, no need to come home..." :(
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For the past decade...he didn't change abit instead it got worse. It made me realize...that one shouldn't be too sure of what one say. I remembered VERY CLEARLY darling said this before "I'll NEVER pick up smoking..." well, that was like in our teens but still...if you are so determined on something, u'll stick by it right? He picked up in his late teens (in the army). & he too said "Don't compare me with my father, I'm not like him...at least I'll NEVER NOT come home..." Well, he's proved it wrong on Friday 09th Sept 2011...perhaps it really runs in the blood. For all I know he may be having an extra marital affairs...which it shouldn't be surprising I suppose.
I do not think I'm at any fault...I did not scream or yell at him when I called him, I was calmed though my words may be harsh. He is definitely wrong...for 5 days, he did not even said anything about the incident...I'm utterly disappointed.
Maybe he's teaching me how to live life without him...well, with or without him life still has to go on I believe. For whatever reason(s) he may be out of my life or our lives...i suppose I have to learn to be independent & live with it. Perhaps he may realize after this ordeal that he can live better without me in his life...

Lord, Please grant me the Patience... ...especially with the Kidzz

One week school holiday has just ended...it's a new term (4) now. Have been nagging Isaac to do some assessment books during his holidays...
Am rather disappointed & annoyed that he couldn't do most of his sums of Math. "Are you stupid or what? Cannot be taught? or you simply don't care & did not pay attention in class while teacher teach?" These were the words I used on him...I'm beginning to feel so very angry with myself...WHY did I use such words when I know I should not...these are very negative & discouraging words...I never want them to be used on me :(
This morning I apologised to Isaac for being so impatient & raising my voice & using such words on him. I did not mean he's stupid of course but at that point of time...i just felt that he should know the sums coz they were taught & it's all so simple.
Anyway, "Isaac, I'm so sorry...mommy will try to be more patient & I'm truely sorry for using all those negative words & passing such discouraging remarks... :(" I really want you to be able to do understand what you've been taught & put them into applications. Please do pay attention in class ok...?

Faith Is Having FEVER Again...

Faith is running a temperature...again...this is the second time this month. What's wrong? Jesus, please heal her...& protect her.
Shield the kidzz from ALL Evil & Darknesses...amen
I'm really tired tOooo :( having to watch out for temperature rising thru' out the nitezz....

The Kidz are Growing up...

Time seems to pass by without one noticing...my 3 monsters are growing up fast. Just by looking at them really warms my heart though the days are still tough, for them I'll brave on. I really pray that they'll understand one day that there are alot of things I wish I can provide them with but they are beyond...really beyond my abilities. I'm giving them whateve best I can give & always praying that they'll grow up in Godly ways...Lord, please always shield them from ALL EVILs & Darknesses, keep them under your watchfuL eyes...

Isaac funny pose...he's in P1 this year with SAJS

Camwhoring (:

Isaiah always ever-ready to smiLe for the camera

Sleepy head...always says he's not tired

Playing Intendo Game Boy



Little Faith is growing up...

       

She loves to pose for the camera

 

so happy ... 

'Harry Potter' 

 Eyeliner...she loves to makeup tOoo



I hope by constantly updating this blog will bring back fond memories for the kidz when they grow up...of coz i'll remind myself to write more regularly o_o



HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY ISAIAH ... ...

Isaiah turned 5 on 24th July 2011. He celebrated his birthday in school on the 22nd July 2011 & like gor gor BB, we brought him for lunch at Crystal Jade Palace this time round at Ngee Ann City. Haven't had a good meal for a long long time. We are also celebrating darling's birthday which falls on the 28th July 2011...2-in-1, father & son celebrating birthdays together :)

Below are some of the celebration pictures taken at: -

The Salvation Army ChilCare Centre (AMK)

 Lightning McQueen Cake, Speed

... from Bengawan Solo ...

 My boy-friends

 My girl-friends

 All my friends...

 Cake Cutting

 Cakes distribution

 mommy, the cake is very niCe...

 Goodie Bags distribution



Brunch at Crystal Jade Palace, Ngee Ann City : -

 Fried Toufu with Fruits Salad

 Steamed Ha Kau

 Garoupa Congee & Lean Meat with Century Egg Congee

 Fried Shrimp Wanton

 Chicken Glutinous Rice in Lotus Leaf

 Char Siew Bao

 Fried BeanCurd Skin (a "must have")

Abalone Rice Roll

Dessert at Swensen's Ice Cream, Junction 8:-

 Birthday Boy (on actual day) gets this "FireHouse" on the house

WOW!!! All SmiLes... (:

 FREE mini Coit Tower on birthday month with any Kid's Meal ordered

FREE Single Scoop of Ice-Cream monthly when you are a Swensen's Kid's Club Member

Everyone is Happy & FULL...from all the eating & desserts...especially the kidzzzz. It's hardly that they get the chance to eat SO MUCH of Ice-Cream. Glad that they've enjoyed the day. There's Cake Cutting at night with Daddy tOOo...



Happy Birthday Isaiah, May the Lord watches & blesses you alwayzzz...